#TAOA

Life has brought many changes my way over the last four years, and with this impending empty nest flashing before my eyes,  I am not so sure I am ready to embrace this latest change at all.  See, my life for the last 16 years has been all about Camryn, and I enjoyed every minute of it.  My days and weeks were filled yet predictable:  weekday volleyball games and weekend tournaments, acting as Camryn's personal chauffeur, spur-of-the-moment mother/daughter road trips and adventures that gave me time to spend with my fave girl and bond before we reached this point we find ourselves in now.

In a few short weeks, she is headed off to college to begin her life, and I am faced with the reality that I am going to be left behind, lonely and bored.  All sorts of thoughts and questions flood my mind: What am I going to do with myself? How will I find purpose again?  Do I really know how to just be me, not Cam's mom, and enjoy life?  Would never ending sadness and depression loom around the corner?

For her, this is an exciting and scary time and equally so for me as well.  Deep inside, I know that change is good, but it is hard to accept sometimes.  I also know that I need to snap out of these dreary thoughts, get myself together, and audaciously chart a new path for my life.  After weeks, no months, of wallowing, I am deciding and choosing to view this change as something to look forward to instead of something to dread.  It is clear that time is passing swiftly.  With each unencumbered moment, I reminisce on all the things I wanted to do before I became a mom, and I feel an overwhelming sense of urgency to put my thoughts into action.

So in 30 days, I will be grabbing life by the proverbial horn and making moves, BIG MOVES because, like the little boy who sang out to the mynah bird,  I've got plans, BIG PLANS, I say!




PS: Shout out to Jaime Miranda for helping me to capture my essence through a hashtag#!
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